Haven’t blogged in a while and generally I feel way better about any situation after I have written.
I met this guy almost 3 years ago. I admit when I first started talking to him it was because he reminded me of Big and sparked my interest. I didn’t really like him at first but because he reminded me of Big it was something familiar without the actual thing and I enjoyed his company. As with anything after being around someone for a while you grow feelings. Me personally my feelings are far more extreme than the norm. I’m gonna name him Berger to keep up with the "Sex & the City" lingo. I don’t even know where to begin. I’ll start with my feelings since that is something I can express well. I have or had an enormous amount of respect for Berger, we can sit and talk for hours literally and conversation is never dull. In fact every time we see each other we sit and talk for hours. He remembers the craziest things about me and I feel comfortable telling him almost anything. I’ve shared things with Berger that I wouldn’t share with Big or any other male which is crazy considering we haven’t known each other that long. He makes me feel like I can trust him more than I can trust any male in my life besides my late brother. Berger is everything Big is not but the ending is still the same. I have strong feelings for him and he doesn’t feel the same way. I’m a tad modest when it comes to expressing myself to members of the opposite sex and sometimes it can take longer for my true feelings to come to surface. I have expressed to Berger that I like him and he stated he feels the same. Issues: Berger has yet to come across state lines to see me, Berger wants to hang out with me on his time, Berger doesn’t show interest in me (besides when we are together), Berger priorities are all fucked up.
I just feel like if you like someone and are feeling them you would take the time out to see them no?
Recently
I have decided to no longer be friends with Berger. I have expressed my feelings to him many times and he’s showed no interest in making it better. I contacted him and informed him of my decisions. I explained that my feelings for him are growing and I can’t stop them, I explained that though he says he’s interested in me he hasn’t showed interest and the only one who will be hurt in the long run is me. He told me that the conversation wasn’t appropriate through bbm and he would call me later that night I agreed. He bbm'd me late to tell me he was working late and we would have the conversation tomorrow. Still no call. The third day I contacted Berger and thanked him for the call that did not happen and explained that this is why my friendship with you needs to be over, my feelings for him are stronger than his for me. He told me that he worked another double the prior night and that is why he hasn’t called. Still no call. I decide to take a trip to the city that weekend and post it as my status on bbm; Berger contacts me asking me when I am coming and how long I’m staying. BTW Berger was the first I told about this trip and the following was his reaction "kool" "for what?" When he asked me how long I’m staying I asked him why? And he stated so he can see me I told him I’m all set and he "smh" and "wow"'d me. I told him that I didn’t want to be his friend and that means we can’t hang out. Berger got upset with me which shocked me and angered me. How dare you get upset at something when here you are playing with my emotions? I told you how I felt about you and you did nothing. I never asked to marry Berger or be in a relationship. All I wanted was for him to show me how he felt about me and that’s it. Actually I just had an epiphany as I’m typing... Berger did show me how he felt about me by not calling me to discuss this issue. He doesn’t like me or he would have called or taken my feelings into consideration. I’m so pissed but life goes on. Me 3 or 4 years ago would text or bbm and tell him about his self, the new me is going to take a deep breath and move on. Life is too short to be wasting your time and energy on someone who isn’t willing to do the same. I like him but I like me more (too cliché?) Nevertheless I won’t go down the same path as I did with Big. It’s unfair to me so I have to cut all ties. Not saying Berger isn’t a good person because that would be lie, he is. He is one of the best people I have met post Big and it will hurt like hell to stop talking to him but this is something I need to do for myself. If I don’t this will be another Big/Wavy situation in a couple months and I refuse to allow that to happen.
BIG IS (TRYNA BE) BACK btw... SMH!
With that I close another chapter in my life... the horrid love stories of Wavy.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Repetitive
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Random
Havent blogged in a while.. so much going on.. but i had to blog a snippet of a bunch of tweets from one of my new followers that i really liked.. FOLLOW HIM!! @dashofcunt
"Boys are Cute MEN are Handsome.
So I had to let that CUTE boy know that when he can Develop Into a HANDSOME man. Then talk to me...
Boys Cheat... Men have Affairs
Boys have Jobs... Men start Careers :)"
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
WHAT A NIGHT
Another day at work and i decided to share this story
Last night me and my friend ( @spitonbarbies) decided to go and meet another friend ( @evesdatgirl) and take a walk. As im walking down the stairs to my apartment, as im tweeting of course i managed to slip and fall and bust my arse. As if that is not embarassing enough i get up while i hear sarah ( @spitonbarbies ) laughing and proceed down the steps. Outside we walk right through a hoodrat war zone and its hectic at what we refer to is "the crackhead house". Quite amusing to me i decide to again tweet about it. I hear one of the neighborhood hoodlums scream at me "one day ima get u to stop for me sexy" and i chuckle to myself. All of a sudden I again am falling to the ground scrape my kneee the fall into the light post. I sit on the cement in the midst of tears for embarassment. As Sarah continues to laugh at me she stops to say "get up dont cry just get up and walk away dont even look back" so i do as im told. As im walking away i can hear the hoodlums scream asking if im ohk. I quickly glance at my knee where i can see the white flesh showing and my right arm where it was also scraped from the pole collison. Knowing that in any instant my knee will start gushing blood i quickly walk to Evelyne (@evesdatgirl)'s house. She thing brings me out towels bandages and neosporin. As i aid myself on her front stairs the embarassment overwhelms me. We then continue our walk or my limp down to the store. So now i am not only the tallest one in the group but i also have a huge bandage on my knee where the scrape was. The worst night ever!! Moral of the Story: DO NOT WALK AND TWEET!
Tho my story isnt as horrid as this... I feel better knowing someone had a worse fall. BTW i had an accident like this when i was about 10 years old.. i havent been on a treadmill since.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
TO DIE FOR...
Monday, June 7, 2010
the unthinkable
Monday, May 3, 2010
im back like cooked crack
hello everyone...all who missed me!! im back like i left my keys!! i havent blogged in a while ive been uber busy but im bored at work (nd what a wonderful job it is) soo here i am!!
i wanted to address a few things... i am so sick of subliminal tweeters like i always feel like they are shots being thrown at me its ridiculous esp if its a man..like really? what happened to the days if you didnt like a person you merely didnt speak to them, now we have all these social networking sites that allow people to subliminally talk about others. i dont subliminally tweet...well atleast i dont try to and if you do i think your a b*tch #killyourself. i cant respect any fake people, and if your following me nd still throwing shots at me you might as well call yourself a barbie! if you dont like me thats fine it will cost you nothing to pay me no mind lets get it together. i dont know maybe im just the last of a dying breed.. oh well!! back to work ill holla later
